Waxing Nostalgic....or, Just Waxing

Well I did make it here....to 50 that is.  50, five decades, half a century, 26,280,000 seconds....it does seem to be somewhat of an "arrival."  However, to say that I have finally "arrived" would be a bit much, because I am not at all sure to where.  But there is a definite feeling that it is to somewhere.  I have been thinking of making some half a century point declarations.  Like maybe once and for all time to quit drinking, cold turkey.  Although, I am a little wary that the idea is just an over-reaction to my birthday celebration hangover.  I would like the next stage of my life to be about something....exactly what that "something" is I am not altogether sure, but there is this little voice inside that keeps whispering the suggestion that the next 10 to 50 years maybe should be a bit less about me.  If all I can say is that I have arrived at that discovery, I guess it is better than nothing.  Anyways, here I am like it, or not.  I have been doing quite a bit of "waxing nostalgic" lately.  I looked the phrase up prior to using it in this post, since at first blush it seems a bit confusing.  It is not necessarily about remembering the past per say, but to grow in fondness of such remembrances....hence the waxing.  I have definitely done a bit of waxing lately, evidenced by the growing size of my waistline.  But really folks, 50 years.  I am sure there are a few out there who have already far exceeded that milestone who are thinking, so what, big deal.  But "wax nostalgic" yourself for a moment and remember hitting that mark and how it made "you" feel.  See, it isn't quite so trivial and insignificant, now is it?  I have seen a lot, done a lot, experienced a lot over those years.  I can't say that I've "done it all" (well, I could say it, and we old fogeys are fond of saying such things, but it of course wouldn't be at all true....I mean I have never shot anyone....thought about it a few times, even rehearsed it in my head, but never actually accomplished that feat, among a few others).  However, I can say that the 50 years of my existence on this earth have been quite a ride to nowhere in particular.  Maybe it is time I began charting a course, since the next great milestone may really be the ultimate and final "arrival."